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Crawling inside myself again

I never know if I will come out the end

It’s such a tangled cobweb

Dusty place deep down inside my mind

I never know if I’ll come out the other side

Or even if I’ll want to

I never know where it ends

A tunnel of time

I’ m raped within

Over powered and forced

Emotionally made to confront memories

God awful desires alone and afraid

I yell at the stars

Rave at the heavens

Even  the porch

Where you use to sit

Where is heaven

Where is the big show

 God show a face show a place

Show a reason

Give me not proof

But peace

Do I care

I guess not

 Because here I go crawling inside

Myself again

Sometimes I’m just as happy there

As on that other side

Inside myself a place of peace

A place were only those I dream

Can take a peak

A river, a steam, a train of thought

Following one’s mind

One might get caught

Feeling good

In some kind of never land were all

Is good

But what a shock

As back you came and understood

I know fingers are typing, I’m aware of that

I know mind is thinking, I know it is

I know heart is feeling because I hurt

And I know my soul is surviving

Because

I crawled inside myself

And took a look.

© 2012, Dan Sanders. All rights reserved.

Dan Sanders (34 Posts)

I made it through college, started at Pace in New York, family seemed to think I needed a business degree. I didn't last long, two double periods of accounting a week and I was off to N.Y. U. To make a long story short ( too late for that) I graduated from UCLA and actually, my biggest kick out of that is just saying, especially here on the east coast UCLA, but I could care less, been in Boston since 1975, though I was coming for a year or so. A very good friend at the time, she said to me "Dan you'll never leave Boston" so dear Florida “Sun Spot Baby" you're down there, been in and out of radio, TV, acting and that's me in a nut shell.


4 Comments

  1. “I know fingers are typing, I’m aware of that

    I know mind is thinking, I know it is

    I know heart is feeling because I hurt

    And I know my soul is surviving”

    Dan, this poem cries out and your voice echos, making us hope and hope for the peace a soul on earth longs for, beautiful in its pain and the pleas for answers. Loved it!

  2. Dan Sanders (Author)

    Thank you Cher not just for your words about the piece for for being a soul who could feel the true pain inside my words.

  3. tolbert

    I yell at the stars
    Rave at the heavens
    Even the porch
    Where you use to sit
    Where is heaven
    Where is the big show

    Oh yeah, I have been here Dan…Pull up a rocking chair, let’s talk!

  4. Dan Sanders (Author)

    Tolbert, Then as you know it’s not a fun place to be, and can even get a little scary. Thank you for your comment. It makes me feel a little less alone

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